Feeling Disconnected

Last month I posted about the changes we are going through and David being laid off from the Navy. Since then he has detached from the ship and been moved to the TPU (Transient Personnel Unit). He  is going through a medical board process through the Navy/VA. It has been a definite change. While all this is going on I have had my own roller coaster feelings about everything. There are ups and downs to everything and the military lifestyle is no exception.

I am so very grateful to the Navy and the wonderful (and not so wonderful) people I have met along the way. I have learned a lot things in the past 6 1/2 years as a spouse please the girlfriend/fiancee time as well. I have many friends who are milspouses, including my two best friends who have become family. I read other milspouse blogs. I love the events that I have gone too with other milspouses. There are a lot of great memories and I wouldn't trade those for anything. I have become involved and used to the military lifestyle.

As I think of where we are going I feel disconnected from the milspouse world already. We are still in WA and David is still in the Navy. I just feel like we're in more of a holding pattern than anything else. Sometimes it doesn't feel like David is in the Navy anymore and other days it feels like he is. It's very weird. I read friend's statuses and blogs about PCSing, military life, and deployments and it just doesn't feel real anymore. It doesn't feel like we're really a part of it anymore even though David is still very much in the Navy. Feelings are a funny thing sometimes.

I am trying to keep everything in perspective and look as this as a new adventure. I guess we just have to wait for the adventure to start. Until then I am sure my feelings will go up and down about all of this. I will just take it all in stride as best I can at the time.